Hey everybody! I shall not let val and cl be the only one to be posting up their Life stories here. Haha. I will try my best to post here too. St, try to blog here too alright? =))

I wonder how could anyone feel happy and sad at the same time? Is there really such a thing? I feel that i'm experiencing this sickening emotion right now. My heart hurts from wanting to smile and yet wanting to cry. The dilemma i'm facing, the torture my heart is suffering. I don't know why this type of thing must happen to me.

I am very happy. Honestly. School's cool, literally. My friends are the best i can ever ask for. =)) My classmates are the coolest i can ever ask for. My recent adventure trip was enriching and mind-relaxing for me. I feel so satisfied with Life and i thank whoever that brought me these joy and laughter.

Yet, i'm like any other humans. Seeking the best in every aspects of my Life. There is only one department lacking in my Life. It's the Love department. I'm too young to meet my soulmate. Too young to understand how to make Love work. But i'm a normal teenager who is interested and seeks for experiences. Of course i won't go around looking for love. I want to wait. I'm not going to plunge into the Love waters like how i did previously.

However, i can't stop thinking of him. Whenever i look at anything, i can somehow link it to him. I wish i was still in Malaysia. I want to run away from the harsh reality. Why do i have to fall for someone whom i can't fall for? I want to cry. But i won't because even if i do, it still doesn't make me liable to fall for him. It's wrong to fall for him. Why must i break the rule? Why must i be charmed by his eyes? Why must i be touched by his supportiveness? Why must i be thinking of him almost every moment?

A relationship that can never be even if both parties like one another. Why must i be destined to this type of fate? I must really try not to be so selfish to want something good of everything. I shall just be happy with my family, my friends, my teachers. And i shall be happy, to see his smile everyday. Seeing his smile is one of the best things i've found in Ngee Ann poly. =))

^^ yijie smiled with a frown